Friday, September 19, 2003
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todae damn chao BANG lor! its like 12 pple din come to sch?! all pon to skip bio test larh arhh? >.< quite an okay dae larhhh. hehsx. and stuff in sch turning out quite okay for me i guess? improved. my lit got 19/25!!!!! -beamsx- thot i did badly for dat paper. and like an urhhhh? everyone got a photocopied version of my paper. and i dun even haf MY OWN paper! >.< hrmmm. den amaths getting better for me. like i'm understanding stuff and can do my own sums. hehsx. and mrs lucy tan praised me! twice i think. hahax. i thot she hated me. hehsx. BUT! my results still come out damn badddddd. hope and prays my results will be okay for the finalsx. i'm working damn hard now! super dooper hard! =]
*knocks head. this morning den it hit me den i will nv be able to visit her again. ='C never be able to talk to her or hold her [wrinkled with age but holds lotsa stories] hands! hais. and my mom's still so damn sad. still keep saying dat her dear grannie seemed so contented and radiant. some pple die wif scared expressions on deir faces, but she keep saying dat her dear grannie died contented surrounded wif pple she loved and whu loved her. but i still cant get over it dat two of my mommie's sisters din turn up for the funeral. or rather dey came damn late. like a TSK! larh. my great gran doted on the two of dem the most. and in the end dey came so fooking late. TSK TSK TSK TSK TSK TSK TSK TSK TSK TSK. my great gran din bring up my mom. but she was dere. she fooking brot up the two sisters and dey din appear. like a wadthehell. tsk. hmph. and haisx. last kisses are always damn sad and heartbreaking. ='C
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Thursday, September 18, 2003
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haisx. i got my eyes opened todae. mebbe we've all been tooooo ignorant to everything. we think we shld enjoy all we like now. no matter how many sins we commit. but when dere's a death in the family or relative. dats when you reallie think back on your life. whether you've done anithing worthwhile or whether you've been wasting away your life. cuz everyone and everything will die sooner or later. haf some fun is okay but if risking everything just to haf fun is den not okay i guess? my only living great grannie passed away last nite. my other great grannie passed away around 5 years ago. and i must sae these women demand my respect. dey haf been in this world for up to 100 yrs [although deir ic states dey are around 95-98 when dey passed away, dey usually put deir ages to be younger last time. supposedly 17 become 14 or sumfing liddat.] wad haf dey not seen in this world? haisx.
i thot i wont crie, no crying i said. but a lot of pple cant control deir emotions, like me d-u-h. this great grannie of mine had a damn powerful memorie. she can rmbr every single detail. and till this age she can rmbr everything. peifu peifu i think i will be damn blur and senile when i grow old. haisx.
so much sniffling so much crying so much sobbing in the hse. and i see my mom crie for like 3rd time in my whole 15 yrs. 3 deaths in the family. 3 times only haf i seen her crie. and she was trying to smile while saying dat "my grannie's diff from other pple. i look at her andshe looks as dou she was smiling. smiling at all of us. i nv seen anione smile liddat before on deir deathbed..." -smilesx- i'm gonna miss her. i'm reallie gonna miss her. i already miss her now. ='C
Tuesday, September 16, 2003
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hmmm. sch reopened ler. less den 3 weeks to finalsx. no more time to play play. must studie like mad now. =| so saddening. haisx. oh welll. da second dae at jurong bird park was totallie horrible. no energy to type out wad happened. went to sch late todae. went at like 1150 den reach sch? hehsx. oh wellsx. had tummieache in the morning not my fault. hehsx. =P den i bot MUSTARD todae!!!! I MISS MUSTARD!!!! hhahax. and bot lotsa hotdogs to go wif the mustard. ehh. anione can recommend me aniwhr which sells delicious tartar sauce? i want to eat tartar sauce. dunnoo wads up wif me craving for sauces. hehsx. =P